I am 20 years old, my life is going slow for me at this time in my life. I lost all of my friends, because they don't like my boyfriend. My boyfriend has a problem and it makes him a different person; he used to put my on a pedestal and now, I don't know if I am a priority. My college screwed me, and the people I love the most turned out to think of me as an annoyance, and I am trying to make the most of my life, but I am tired and the smile that I'm faking, It's breaking.